I handed in my dissertation last Friday.
Wow, that's scary. A whole week.
And what have I done since...? Well nothing productive, it seems.
In my defence, it was my birthday on Tuesday, thus apparently giving me the excuse to be lazy for several days either side. I attended a hen party and had a meal with friends last weekend... but other than that, I've not been up to much this past week.
I've been doing a little reading, finishing off a book I read for the dissertation and reading a few others I got for my birthday. Nothing especially exciting in any of that.
I also wrote a plan for the rest of Hide and See. I figured, up to the end of my dissertation, I'm a little under halfway through the novel. I do (at the moment, anyway) want to finish it, and then edit it for several million years until it's decent enough to maybe publish one day. I say 'at the moment' because I'm sure that as soon as I get my dissertation marks back I will once more hate it and never want to see it again.
Me? A pessimist? No.... I like to think of it as being a realist.
I can't help but feel frankly terrified by the prospect of getting back my marks for the dissertation. Every single mark I've got back for the MA has been a disappointment. I know I'm looking at it from a geek/over-achiever/perfectionist point-of-view but the fact remains that I've just not looked at a mark this year and been happy with it. I really don't know where it all went so fantastically wrong and am thus dreading getting my results.
And so this is why I am resolving to get as much of Hide and See written as I can before the results are given. After writing the plan for the second half of the novel I feel quite excited by the idea of writing it. I had a vague idea before of where I wanted it to go but now that I've written out a more specific timeline I think it's got potential - at least in terms of plot. I should imagine my darling characters will still be defying me at every turn. *Sigh*
I'm starting to get that grumpiness from not having written in a while. Methinks I'll have to get down some words this weekend - in between all the dreaded job hunting. Ugh, I miss being a student already.