I have just finished my third attempt at Chapter 1 of Hide and See. I am still not happy with it. I think it's better than my second attempt, but then that isn't really saying much as I wanted to burn that one in a fiery tribute to the Gods-of-making-words-sound-good.
It gets better towards the end, I think: it's just the first 1.8k that's the problem. Out of just under 2k.
I have decided, however, that I'm not going to start it again, regardless of how much I hate certain passages. I am instead going to charge on through to the second chapter, which I abandoned half-way through the second attempt. Does that even made any sense? I feel like I've got too many numbers in this paragraph.
My problem partially lies in the fact that I am (or was?) probably intending to use this novel for the Good Housekeeping competition. That means that it MUST BE GOOD. IT MUST BE THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER WRITTEN EVER!!! Obviously, this is not really a good mindset in which to write, especially for my contrary brain which sees such a challenge and decides to do the exact opposite.
Maybe if I tell my brain I'm using Fall instead it will stop being such a big poopy-face (yes, I am five-years-old) and let me write something half-decent. Do you reckon that will work? Can I use one part of my brain to trick a different part into believing something which may or may not in fact be true? Or will I just end up giving myself a headache.
I think we all know the answer to that one.
In other news, you might have noticed that I wrote my first book review a couple of days ago. It's pretty shockingly bad but then I realised (on reading back) that so were my first blog posts. I think I've got better at those so hopefully the same will apply to the reviews. Here's me, crossing all my fingers.